A Hard, Hard Week
Pressure
I think it is fair to say that the pressure is on at the moment, but I can live with it. I’m within grasping reach of achieving my dream, of doing something that I have always wanted, and making a living out of it.
Relax
I have tried to take some time out, I think a holiday could very well be in order, but when? I’m drained at the moment and could just do with shutting down for a few weeks, or a couple of days even.
Two weeks then
The ex manages to turn up roughly every two weeks, to see Bella more then to see me. In fact last time, she came she got ready for a date at my house, which I still feel is a little cruel. It’s not that I want to get back with her, I don’t. But it’s not fair to rub these things in my face. Had it been the other way around I would not have done it to her. I would not. And I’ve just dropped her off again, and whilst I guess I still have love for her I know we are not suited and in an ideal world I could get the space I need. I always feel emotionally drained when she leaves. Sad thing is I don’t think she feels any emotion at all and therefore does not really understand why I act the way that I do. I’m just pleased that it is custody of a dog and not children. I can not imagine how hard that would be.
Post production
Starts on Thursday and I can not wait.
Laters,
Chalkster