Thoughts for the day

Piling it on

It’s true, after working so hard to loose eight, I seam to be piling the pounds on again.  I’m back to the gym everyday though and must be eating and drinking too much.  It’s not outrageous yet, but it is a worrying sign.  I like being thinner so I must motivate myself to stop the booze and food, or at least be sensible about it.  Funny thing is I managed to keep down in size up until two weeks before the shoot, and it seams to have all gone wrong from there. Porridge for breakfast then!

Laters,

Chalkster

The Hardest Thing

For me is relinquishing responsibility, I’m sat at my desk going through rushes deciding which bits of each shot to use, which angle conveys each moment the best, and It’s tough, mostly because I can edit, and I’d find it much easier to just start hacking into the project. But I must respect the editor, they have their own way of working, and organising the footage, for me to hand over a project in a rough cut the way I work would be hugely unprofessional. So instead I have to sit here notebook/spreadsheet in hand and time-code what I want. I t makes a lot of sense, but feels counterproductive, though in real terms it is the best way forward. It is so important for us to use best practice as soon as we start.

My Days

There are a few things that I dream for at the moment, I would actually quite like an office away from my home. A couple of desks for me and Si to write from, two sofa’s in the middle with a coffee table for us to ‘thought shower’ around and a darkened room with a full and proper editing suit. A big powerful Apple Mac with two 24′ monitors and an output monitor so you can really see how things will look. It would also have to be dog friendly as I would hate to work away from Bella, when she is not by my side, curled up on the bed, at my feet… I just feel like something is wrong. The bond has grown almost unbreakable between us now. I struggle to believe anyone could ever give up their pet. How would it be possible.

Children

I was talking to my AD the other day [yesterday perhaps] and discussing the draw towards children, I’m pretty much ready for children, I’m just not sure I’m ready to commit to a relationship with their mother [this is of course a thought process rather then an actual, as there are no children and certainly no mother in the immediate future, unless you can get you hand pregnant]. It’s just as you get older the need to fulfill your destiny seams to grow stronger and stronger, after all this is our basic programing. Lets see what the future holds.

Back to Logging then.

Laters,

Chalkster

Never underestimate the value of friendship.

I think my brother once said to me that you can class yourself as a lucky person if you have three life long friends.  So what is a life long friend?  Obviousley it is somebody that you connect with and somebody that can deal with those idiosycrasies that we have, I certainly do.  They are likely to be different to you in many ways but share some form of level.  I count myself very lucky to have countless life long friends.  I’m not sure you realise who they are until you see them again, perhaps from a phone call.  Perhaps a chance meeting. They are the people that you see across the street and walk over to. You act like you have not spent any time apart. That or you look at each other and walk away.

Me Digress?

I rarely get to see a friend of mine that really is a lifer.  It seams that it is only when  I need something that we seem to meet.  I really want just to spend some un-assuming social time with the guy.  Any way, he is giving me endless support in the post production of the short ‘Chop’ that we have recently finished filming, to the point where he talked a local company into letting us use their edit suit at a remarkably knocked down price to upload onto my hard disc.  After convincing them that we have noting to do with Vicky Jewson, they were hugely helpful and very, very kind.  These people are not a small company in the world of Television either, and I suspect will offer us future support.  Very Exciting times.

I’m A director

And as such I am aloud to look at the work I’ve done, whilst others like it and be critical IT IS MY RIGHT, and I will abuse it. The rushes are mostly very good actually.  But they are not ground breaking or ’some of the best I’ve seen’.  They are in fact a real credit to the cast and crew, who worked so hard for so very little, and I am proud of what we achieved with so little at our disposal.  It’s Just that I want more, I want to be better, and I’m the only person that has let anybody down, if anybody has at all, which they might not have done.  I just want so badly to be making a living from this, and I so very nearly am. The pressure for everything to be exceptional is immense.  And I know it’s early doors, however I would very much like to wake up in the morrow and know, that each and every-morning until I die I Will be living the dream, the creative dream that Ive been waiting patiently for since I was 14.  It will come, and I will keep my composure.  I will.

Shame it just can not be now….

Laters,

Chalkster