Thoughts for the day

Is funny what a decade or so can do

I’m really happy at the moment, all the years of hard work seam to really be paying off and I really do think it is just about to happen.  Whether money in any quantity is made is almost irrelevant, I will be living and working my dream.   So that just leaves one last thing for me to do, and that is to loose the spare tyre and to keep the fucking thing off.  I think it will be easier this time as I’ve a really supporting network of friends unlike my early twenties when we all just took the piss out of each other.  I get the feeling that I’m the only person that thinks I’m fat, I’m comfortable enough to speak about it, even make jokes but still very fragile over it.  I guess its my Ikilies heal, but it seams to be healing over.  I think mostly because I no longer think everybody is making jokes about it or looking at me, I suspect they never did but its always in the back of your mind.

Stems from bulying

I remember walking across the quad in school and thinking everybody was joking and pointing at me, it left me paranoid.  I don’t think I could possibly have believed that I could be in such a strong place in my life, with so many interesting people, people who don’t judge on anything other then the mind.  I think because of that I’m ready to make the difference and loose this weight, then I think I can be truly happy.  I’m happy, happy and fat - don’t laugh though, I’m deadly serious about no longer being fat, I really am.

Mentally Strong

And that my freinds is what will get me through these chalanging times, I’ll be thin for the press releases I promise.

Laters,

Chalkster