Well, there have been some delays in the film, mostly due to circumstances outside of my control. But these things have now been dealt with and we are moving things forward, hopefully more rapidly then before. It’s infuriatingly frustrating, however it is pointless getting angry or letting these things get to you. That is in fact how you loose track of the important things in your life and the project.
In the meantime…
Tom And I have put together a show-reel of work that should hopefully impress at least a couple of people.
Since Cannes and so much has happened and not happened. The shame is I will not be going this year, which of course I should be were it not for being behind on the project, which is now making me sick. I look back on everything and whilst it’s been a steep learning curve I really cant see any reason or explanation for why vertically nothing has happened.I spend most of my time feeling sick about the whole thing. The worst time of course is when I go to bed and my mind lights up like a Christmas tree. I run all the scenarios in my head, worry about how I can get through the next month and hope that something will have happened over night to change everything. Of course this never happens.
Of course it’s going to happen
That’s not really in question, and I’m sure in some respect the project will be stronger for the water that passes and the knowledge that comes with time spent, time wasted and time well used. It’s just sometimes I feel so helpless and sometimes I feel like I should have trusted less and done more myself. It’s no joke that this is said to be the hardest business in the world to get into. Whilst I suspect its not entirely true, it certainly has its pitfalls and a hat-full of severe lessons for all to learn.
So Mentally
For me it all starts again today. I’ll spend half an hour in the shower getting my good head back on and work from there. Hey, we’ll all look back and laugh at how this all happened and the fabulous journey? Perhaps not then.
